I had a great childhood. I did well in school, had lots of friends and made good grades. When I got to high school, I was faced with a lot of peer pressure. I was very intimidated by the older kids and wanted to fit in, so I began experimenting with drugs and alcohol. I saw the way some of the other girls dressed and acted to get attention, so I did the same. I was unhappy with my “new” self, but it got me noticed and to me, attention was attention. I was making all kinds of bad choices and ended up getting pregnant and having two children while I was in high school. I didn’t want to place them for adoption, but I was not taking care of them, and eventually, they were taken from me. My drug and alcohol addiction got worse, and I felt guilt, shame and sadness. My life was out of control, and I felt hopeless and alone. I knew I couldn’t continue living my life as a drug addict and neglecting my responsibilities as a mother. I heard about Mercy from a friend, and I knew God was the only way to freedom and deliverance, so I decided to apply.
While at Mercy, I have learned the importance of trusting God. I have learned to cry out to God and tell Him my fears and my worries. When I feel like I can’t go on, I ask Him to carry me and He does. I have also learned the importance of putting Him first in my life. I have experienced His everlasting love, and I know there is nothing I can do that will make Him love me less or more. It doesn’t matter who comes in or out of my life, He will never leave me. I’m a new creation!
After graduation, I plan to continue my education and go to culinary school. The biggest thing I’m looking forward to is being the mother I am called to be to my children. I really don’t know where I would be if I didn’t have a place like Mercy to come and get healing. My children would never have the mother they deserve. I’m truly thankful for Mercy.
I grew up in an abusive household and experienced physical, emotional and sexual abuse on numerous occasions while growing up. I was the oldest child of three, and I took on the responsibility of taking care of my siblings. I had many adult responsibilities as a young child, and I did not take care of myself. This led to self-harm, eating disorders and thoughts of suicide to end my life. I tried many different hospitals and treatment centers but never received the true and lasting healing that I had been looking for. I was prescribed several medications and told that I was going to struggle with depression and an eating disorder for the rest of my life. I believed there was nothing I could do and that I was going to die. I heard about Mercy from a friend and went to the website. It was completely free, and I thought they could help me, so I decided to apply.
While at Mercy, I learned many things. I learned that God loves me, and I love Him. I also learned how to love myself and others, and I have been able to forgive those who have hurt me. Forgiveness is a choice that I must make to be free.
After graduation, I am planning to enter the job force while pursuing my passion for music. My long-term goal is to be a worship leader and let others know who Jesus really is and what He can do for them and through them. No matter what kind of life-controlling issues or problems you have, Jesus is the answer. He has come to heal the broken-hearted!
Congratulations Jessica and Lydia! We are so proud of your commitment to face your issues and fight for freedom! We look forward to hearing how God will use you to help others in your family, your community and the world!